hey i am back again.....
with another life crisis.... with another disappointment... with another phase of self depreciation... so yeah bear with me!!!
do u believe that people can be SO broken that they can never be mended?? do u believe that sometimes people are meant to be alone..... are all the movies and romantic books all cartoon all just propagating a lie.... do you believe that there are people who never get there "happily ever after".....
what the hell am i talking of course there are.... what about the girls who are trafficked, what about the children abandoned what about the poverty stricken millions in the world, the war zone people the immigrant abused worker.... of course millions of people never get their happily ever after....
so whats the big deal if i don't get it either..... so what if i am too damaged for people to love me.... so what if i have to compromise and never be bale to live the life i want to live..... anisha Mathews love happens to lucky people...... it never happens to those desperately waiting for it..... and anyways love is not something out there, its something one has to create....
NB came into your life to teach u this, you can love a person who you have not know for years, you can also live with a person you don't love..... its about time.... grow up, leave behind the fantasies of eternal love, happily ever after and prince charming...... things don't work out that way.... and don't u ever start talking about destiny and karma..... i think it is established that both are not in ur favor and they are bitches.....
believe that good things happen to good people but also believe that if bad things are happening to you u must be a bad person..... you need no one besides you..... you can fight the world alone you too know it...... so what does it matter if you are living by yourself, in your father's house or with some random guy your parents choose.....
don't feel sad for yourself anisha...... many people have it worse than you..... be grateful..... that you have a family, you have your friends, that you are safe, that your are well fed, you have a shelter, and that you are not being exploited.....
Begin to accept that you have to give out love..... you are not destined to receive that love back from one person.... the only purpose of your life is to help others feel better..... irrespective of whether you are giving love or receiving love.... you know even when u are receiving love it has to be from many people so that they can feel the power of giving and make it a part of their life....
you are like the mango tree..... giving around..... comforting.... providing support, fun and shade.... but always standing alone.... so stand tall and wipe off those tears..... you have work to do.... there are kids out who need you, so make them your life.... they are way better than adults anyways...... they are not scared to trust and with them Anisha you are not scared to share.......
ALL THE BEST BABY!!! the journey of live is long and lonely..... enjoy every companion you meet no matter for how long.... and always remember WE WALK ALONE!!!
