hi......
its me again.... this time i decided to do some Stock Taking of my life.... Long over due.....ok now im throughly confused...... should i begin with whats going good in my life of whats going bad????
ok decided i will begin with the worst to end with the best........
Things not working out......
Career
Education
Family
Dreams
Social Support
Love
Things working Out.....
Will to Move on....
Ability to sand up without any support......
Ability to make new friends......
Smile despite Insecurities......
alright so what do we do now...... i guess its time to stop looking at others and start looking inside.... im different... i am unable to live life teh way i would want it to...... (if i am able to live it that way i will surely die very very young....) and i guess thats the reason he(GOD) doesnt allow me to live my life my way.....
i have to accept that i will never live as wildly or as carefree as i would want to..... I am 27 now....... i guess now im tooo old to even want to live but dil hai ki maanta nahi....... :P
but then there this other side to me.... who wants to do things that i may actually be able to do..... social work, helping people out, reading, listening to the troubles of the troubled, learning..... the old mature things of life...... (a better example of the constant struggle between the id and superego will never be available)
now the fact remains what do i want to do..... are the two lives sooo explicit..... can i try and intermingle them..... can i be happy with what i get to do at this particular time..... so what if im not living the wild life now, maybe now's not the time for wild partying...... maybe its time for some serious living.... and some other time will be there for wild partying......
this is the time to invest in self.... in the brain...... time to gratify the superego....... sumday i will be gratifying the id also its a promise to you my dear!!!!! i wont stifle you for long..... just waiting for when it will be MY time..... as our society demands as of now its the Patriarch's time ......
Thank you for helping me clear MY MIND!!!!! feeling way better..... i thnk im gonna try an be regular now!!!! :P
SOME HOW IM SMILING AGAIN!!!!! LOVE YOU LIFE.......
its me again.... this time i decided to do some Stock Taking of my life.... Long over due.....ok now im throughly confused...... should i begin with whats going good in my life of whats going bad????
ok decided i will begin with the worst to end with the best........
Things not working out......
Career
Education
Family
Dreams
Social Support
Love
Things working Out.....
Will to Move on....
Ability to sand up without any support......
Ability to make new friends......
Smile despite Insecurities......
alright so what do we do now...... i guess its time to stop looking at others and start looking inside.... im different... i am unable to live life teh way i would want it to...... (if i am able to live it that way i will surely die very very young....) and i guess thats the reason he(GOD) doesnt allow me to live my life my way.....
i have to accept that i will never live as wildly or as carefree as i would want to..... I am 27 now....... i guess now im tooo old to even want to live but dil hai ki maanta nahi....... :P
but then there this other side to me.... who wants to do things that i may actually be able to do..... social work, helping people out, reading, listening to the troubles of the troubled, learning..... the old mature things of life...... (a better example of the constant struggle between the id and superego will never be available)
now the fact remains what do i want to do..... are the two lives sooo explicit..... can i try and intermingle them..... can i be happy with what i get to do at this particular time..... so what if im not living the wild life now, maybe now's not the time for wild partying...... maybe its time for some serious living.... and some other time will be there for wild partying......
this is the time to invest in self.... in the brain...... time to gratify the superego....... sumday i will be gratifying the id also its a promise to you my dear!!!!! i wont stifle you for long..... just waiting for when it will be MY time..... as our society demands as of now its the Patriarch's time ......
Thank you for helping me clear MY MIND!!!!! feeling way better..... i thnk im gonna try an be regular now!!!! :P
SOME HOW IM SMILING AGAIN!!!!! LOVE YOU LIFE.......
